It's Okay to Tired

Sometimes I really want to show my feelings. Like I am sad, unhappy, distressed and really want to show it off but it seems like no one trusts me. I have no one to talk with and understand how I feel that's why sometimes I share it in my story, but we think that I am dramatic because I look so happy every time, but no one knows the sadness in my heart. 

I don't want to pretend anymore that I'm happy. I'm tired of faking my smile in front of everybody. I am just so tired of pretending that I'm okay, even though i'm not. I'm so sick of the pain that I've been feeling. Sometimes, I just want run away from everyone and start over a life in a place where nobody knows me. I feel so hopeless, knowing that my pain never ends. It makes me sad seeing myself being miserable in my own room.

I've tried my best to be nice all the time but it hurts a lot whenever they try to break me, for a very long time, i've been settling for some people who couldn't see my worth. I feel like i am not enough, i feel like i am hard to love and sometimes feel like i don't have the right to complain about how they treat me just so i could keep them in my life. 

So, I will always try my best of my life. Always being strong, pushing myself to endure everything, not sharing my sadness with anyone, carrying the pressure alone and always saying " i'm fine " when asked even honestly i'm so tired. 

Happy weekend ..