Kamis, 16 Januari 2025

(Honestly) I'm Tired

Bismillah,,

ya Allah
in my entire life, I have never wanted to hurt anyone. 
My intentions were always pure. 
When I love, I love hard. 
I never want to put anyone in a position where they get hurt so much that they can't even eat, sleep or work. 
But why is it so far that's the position I am in. 
Why do people hurt me when all I want was something real and loved the way I deserved. 
Why is it so far my life has been the act of letting go all the time ? Why is it so far I have to constantly say I am okay but allah knows how broken I am each day.

Do I not deserve to have someone by my side too ? 
Do I have to constatntly watch others have the life i want while Im here wondering what is wrong with me ? 

I don't understand and I don't know until when do I have to wait until I completely put my guard up high again and never try again.

Because I don't know how long I can stay sane and strong.


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